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We Are Alive, After All

      I have been voraciously devouring every piece of Anthony Bourdain media I can get my hands on for the past couple of weeks.  I really knew nothing about him prior to this - the extent of my knowledge about him was that he was that famous chef who traveled the world for a CNN show and he committed suicide a couple years back.  I was randomly thinking about him some nights back, and wondered if he ever did an episode of his show(s) in or around my home city, so I checked him out and was hooked.     One thing I find about him is that I identify with him an almost frustrating amount.  He, like me, seems to take some level of joy in inflicting chaos and self-destruction in your own life to the point of self-flagellation, pulling yourself up out of whatever burnt down ash-ridden husk you emerge from, and finding ways to romanticize it later on.  Teetering on the edge of oblivion, but never quite losing your balance.  Constantly fighting a battle against yourself against laziness and th